I reached for the chocolate chip cookie, hot from the oven. Before
I knew it, I’d eaten six.
I reached for the chocolate chip cookie, hot from the oven. I
thought, why am I reaching for sugar and fat? Before I knew it I’d eaten five.
I reached for the warm chocolate chip cookie. I thought, Why
am I eating? I sat at the kitchen table,
found paper and pen. I wrote, “I feel powerless because I can’t make my
daughter stop fighting her homework.” I ate three chocolate chip cookies.
I reached for the day old cookie. Why? I feel powerless. “God,
you know how powerless I feel. You know my anxiety. Please help me trust you
for her future.” I ate one cookie.
I stopped baking cookies.
As an overeater myself, I find this a very interesting poem. I kind of want to talk with the poet and ask questions. I think he/she is saying that they are in denial and they are eating cookies because of it, and then they do the next healthy thing by taking away the temptation, which I think here they are saying that she/he missed the point, which I think the only thing she didn’t do is go back to step 1 after stopping the addictive behavior and continue the steps.
Cathy, I’m suggesting, in this poem, that we need to think about why we’re eating. The use of the word, “powerless” may confuse the issue because that’s the First Step word. As we understand our anxiety/powerlessness, we ask Jesus for help and peace. As we find our peace in him, our need to eat diminishes and we can stop baking cookies. Does that make sense?
Karen
I just wanted to say that I really enjoy reading this site and it has helped me a lot! I am going through some family issues and your material has helped me focus on what is true.
Thanks!
Colleen, Thanks for letting me know. Staying focused on what’s really true is what sets us free.
Blessings,
Karen
This poem sounds so much like me! I am having such a struggle with overeating! I had gone from 288 to 188. I now weigh 245, and I am so depressed! 🙁
Vern,
I’m so sorry. Weight issues go to the core of us. Don’t give up. Focus for a while on maintaining the 245…that’s still more than 40 pounds less that you were!
Have you read my “food addict” article? There’s a link on the right side of the blog.
Blessings,
Karen